Confession

In light of having more free time than I know what to do with, resulting in countless sleepless nights, I have had nothing better to do then think & process various things. As a result of all this, I've realized several things, which will be discussed in the next couple posts.

The past couple of weeks I have been attending a ladies Bible study. The study is a series called "Experiencing God" Essentially the study is about finding & experiencing God in the day to day. Something that has really been emphasized is our need to take the spiritual truths of God and make them a reality in our daily lives. This is much easier said then done, because of what I call "the head-heart disconnect" The head-heart disconnect is our ability to know something in our head but not know it in our heart. Somehow the knowledge in our head gets lost in translation on its way to our hearts to become wisdom. For instance, if someone were to ask me if God loved me, I would say absolutely w/o hesistation. But there was a time in my life when inspite of knowing that in my head, I didn't necessarily believe it in my heart. It was simply a conditioned response, not a reality in my life.

I once heard it said: "wisdom is the application of knowledge" when I heard this in chapel last spring I remember thinking that this was one of the most profound things I had heard in awhile. It was the antithesis of the head-heart disconnect. My confession is that I am a knowledge dispenser. God has given me an amazing passion for learning theology & kingdom principles & the equally beautiful gift of explaining it to others. If I'm being honest, the problem is that only a small percent of that is a reality in my life as opposed to the majority of it being conditioned responses to various situations.

The handful of learned knowledge, that has become actual heart wisdom for daily life is immensely liberating. To truly live in that small amount of wisdom is to better understand the character & nature of God in a much more satifying & realistic way. My desire, prayer & hope is for God to continue to transform my acquired knowledge into daily heart wisdom so that I can continue to live & walk in freedom.